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#FreshVision (Fresh Passion)

The Lord made me a passionate person.  Period.  When I get into something, I GET INTO IT.  Big time.  Like, I can remember every male celebrity obsession I had since I was 5 years old (yes, I had a celebrity obsession at 5 years old.  It was Bob from Sesame Street).  I moved on to Henry Winkler (Fonzie!!!), and Robin Williams (Mork!!!)  and then on to John Schneider from the Dukes of Hazzard, then Ted Danson from Cheers (I was in 4th grade.  It still seems wrong), then Jack Wagner and then Michael J. Fox and Kirk Cameron and Michael Hutchence from INXS until I finally settled on Jim Morrison.  That lasted all of high school and a little bit after.  And who am I kidding, just a teensy eensy bit now, too.  I still get into my Doors moods when I just think they are the bee’s knees.

God made me this way so I would eventually figure out that my passion needed to be on HIM.  Not some bloated dead rock star or a goofy teen idol.  I have always loved to write…I’ve wanted to be a writer since 1st grade when I wrote that as the first sentence in the first journal I ever started keeping:  “I want to be a writer.  I want to be as famous as Shakespeare.”  Bold aspirations for a 6-year old.

So, my fresh passion is this:  I want to write about God and Jesus and the Holy Spirit and crazy things about my life and my walk in faith and what I think about things and how I do things.  I want to keep doing this blog as long as it takes to refine my writing, my style, my voice, until I get to a place where I figure out how I’m supposed to continue with this thing.  This is my passion.  Okay, let me rephrase that:  God is my passion.  I want my gifts to be used for Him.  My gifts include my husband and children, extended family, friends, church family, and my writing.  I enjoy doing many other things, but nothing else can really reach others like this.  Sometimes when I speak one-on-one to people, I insert a lot of “dudes” and “mans” and “knowwhatimeans” into the conversation.  This is somehow easier for me.

I want people to know the God I know, see the Jesus I see, feel the Holy Spirit I feel.  It has transformed my life and I want to share it with others.  This comes naturally through writing.  So you might see a lot of posts this week.

One thing I wrote in my journal yesterday:

“I must let go of some worldy things that constantly tempt me.  I want to stand WITH God, not oppose Him!  He is so good to me, and I have seemed to lose my obedient spirit this week.  Where did it go?!  Is this normal, to face more opposition the closer we get to Him?”

And then I wrote, “YES!!!!”

I also wrote that is is pointless to navigate through this life obediently without Him RIGHT THERE WITH ME.

I like that.  It’s true, too.  I am learning that I am really, REALLY hard on myself when I mess up (I always have been this way).  And I don’t have to be.  I don’t get any special extra points in heaven if I dwell on my mistakes for a week.  We ALL fall, and we all have our different things that bring us down.  I need to remember to repent, reset, and MOVE ON.  MOVE IT ALONG, PEOPLE…NOTHING TO SEE HERE.  God forgives us in that moment of repentance (that is, really truly intending with all your heart to follow Him and not repeat that transgression).  Jesus suffered in ways we cannot imagine so that we can have that.  Our suffering in comparison to that is like…well, I can’t even go there right now.  That’s for another time.

God uses our experiences to equip us for our calling.  This usually means “bad” experiences.  Tough experiences.  I’ve got a lot of those.  Let me stew on that and write about it soon…

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Fresh Vision #1

It’s never too late for a fresh vision. I thought my vision was clear:  seek God.  Follow Jesus.  Serve my family.  But I am realizing that while all these things are crucial, it’s okay to dream BIG.  Go big or go home, right?

This week in the study is about asking God to share His big dreams for us.  And He will reveal them if we are radically obedient.  And I must confess, I have not been radically obedient for the past few days, and I feel like God was using the experience to open my eyes.  To show me the things that I make an idol, and to show me how much I missed Him when I was being radically disobedient.  And I guess that’s an exaggeration; I just let myself get wrapped up in things that were a distraction.  And maybe that’s okay once in a while…?  Because the timing was perfect, actually.  I woke up this morning with my fresh vision firmly in place.

I’m going to pray and pray and write and write about my fresh vision this week.  My big dream for myself is to write.  For Him, about Him, and because if Him.  I feel that He gifted me with a certain style and communication skill, and I am to use that to glorify Him.  Which I guess I have been doing for a while now.  But I want to get bigger and better.  I want this to be not just my little morning Bible study exercise.  I want this to be kinda major.

Okay.  Things I am going to ponder (you may feel free to ponder them, too)…

1.  The inevitable fact that is that the more obedient to God I become, the more opposition I will face. (which ties into this week’s verse, James 4:7)

2.  My life will follow where I focus my vision.

3.  God uses our experiences to equip us for our calling.

I’m going to write as much as I can this week on the above thoughts, and also the suggested topics from the study.  Mama’s got a lot to say.

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I found a quote by Renee Swope from “A Confident Heart,” which is a great book and is next up in the Online Bible Study:

“Every time I fail to be the woman God calls me to be or the woman I expect myself to be, God reminds me of the progress I’ve made.  Even though I may not be who I want to be, I am not what I used to be.”

Amen to that.