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A prayer for an average September morning (and beyond)

On page 143 Lysa challenges us to pray for the next 30 days asking God to reveal Himself to us and fill us with a desire for him like never before. Write your prayer here.

Father God,  you are sovereign over all things.  You are in me, around me, above me and below me.  Your Truth flows out and becomes my truth, too.  You are leading me in the precise direction you have planned.  You have placed the people in my life for a reason.  You have given me all my quirks and faults and good parts for a reason.  I know this.  I have always known this.  But I also really want to know YOU.  I want to hear you speaking, and recognize when it’s actually YOU and not my agenda.  I want to be obedient, I want to say yes to you every day.  Every day is a new chance to refine the way I live my life here on earth.  When I fall, You are there.  You are there because you already know exactly where  I’m going to fall.  You are always there.  That is so awesome.  I want my desire for you to reach a place I’ve not yet experienced.  Thank you for little, wonderful experiences like last night when I sat with Lisa and Christine on Lisa’s porch and we drank kombucha and listened to the night critters singing their songs while our kids played inside and we talked about You.  They probably didn’t realize what I was thinking.  That I was just SO HAPPY to be with them and with You and to be a mother and a sister and a friend.  That I am so thankful for healthy, happy kids and nature and freedom and choices and second chances.  You are just full of surprises and I know that the closer I follow you on this journey, the closer we will become.  We can only become closer through Jesus, whom I am looking forward to getting to know better every day for the rest of my life.  In Jesus’ holy and awesome name, Amen.

p.s.  I was also about to thank you that my kids were playing very quietly under the table at my feet while I wrote this.  Then I peeked under there and they both had my makeup bag and were smearing makeup on each other.  I was about to get annoyed when Max looked at me, covered with lip gloss, and said, “I want to look pretty for my dance party!” And then he started laughing hysterically. Yes, lucky for us you are an awesome and creative God with a fantastic sense of humor.

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#FreshVision (Fresh Passion)

The Lord made me a passionate person.  Period.  When I get into something, I GET INTO IT.  Big time.  Like, I can remember every male celebrity obsession I had since I was 5 years old (yes, I had a celebrity obsession at 5 years old.  It was Bob from Sesame Street).  I moved on to Henry Winkler (Fonzie!!!), and Robin Williams (Mork!!!)  and then on to John Schneider from the Dukes of Hazzard, then Ted Danson from Cheers (I was in 4th grade.  It still seems wrong), then Jack Wagner and then Michael J. Fox and Kirk Cameron and Michael Hutchence from INXS until I finally settled on Jim Morrison.  That lasted all of high school and a little bit after.  And who am I kidding, just a teensy eensy bit now, too.  I still get into my Doors moods when I just think they are the bee’s knees.

God made me this way so I would eventually figure out that my passion needed to be on HIM.  Not some bloated dead rock star or a goofy teen idol.  I have always loved to write…I’ve wanted to be a writer since 1st grade when I wrote that as the first sentence in the first journal I ever started keeping:  “I want to be a writer.  I want to be as famous as Shakespeare.”  Bold aspirations for a 6-year old.

So, my fresh passion is this:  I want to write about God and Jesus and the Holy Spirit and crazy things about my life and my walk in faith and what I think about things and how I do things.  I want to keep doing this blog as long as it takes to refine my writing, my style, my voice, until I get to a place where I figure out how I’m supposed to continue with this thing.  This is my passion.  Okay, let me rephrase that:  God is my passion.  I want my gifts to be used for Him.  My gifts include my husband and children, extended family, friends, church family, and my writing.  I enjoy doing many other things, but nothing else can really reach others like this.  Sometimes when I speak one-on-one to people, I insert a lot of “dudes” and “mans” and “knowwhatimeans” into the conversation.  This is somehow easier for me.

I want people to know the God I know, see the Jesus I see, feel the Holy Spirit I feel.  It has transformed my life and I want to share it with others.  This comes naturally through writing.  So you might see a lot of posts this week.

One thing I wrote in my journal yesterday:

“I must let go of some worldy things that constantly tempt me.  I want to stand WITH God, not oppose Him!  He is so good to me, and I have seemed to lose my obedient spirit this week.  Where did it go?!  Is this normal, to face more opposition the closer we get to Him?”

And then I wrote, “YES!!!!”

I also wrote that is is pointless to navigate through this life obediently without Him RIGHT THERE WITH ME.

I like that.  It’s true, too.  I am learning that I am really, REALLY hard on myself when I mess up (I always have been this way).  And I don’t have to be.  I don’t get any special extra points in heaven if I dwell on my mistakes for a week.  We ALL fall, and we all have our different things that bring us down.  I need to remember to repent, reset, and MOVE ON.  MOVE IT ALONG, PEOPLE…NOTHING TO SEE HERE.  God forgives us in that moment of repentance (that is, really truly intending with all your heart to follow Him and not repeat that transgression).  Jesus suffered in ways we cannot imagine so that we can have that.  Our suffering in comparison to that is like…well, I can’t even go there right now.  That’s for another time.

God uses our experiences to equip us for our calling.  This usually means “bad” experiences.  Tough experiences.  I’ve got a lot of those.  Let me stew on that and write about it soon…

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#SayWhat ?

Something different this time: Instead of talking about how God is speaking to me right now, I want to list some times that He spoke to me before I really, REALLY started following Him. Because he doesn’t just speak to those who have decided to wholeheartedly follow Jesus, you know. He speaks to people who are resisting Him. Ignoring him. Hearing Him, yet pushing Him away. I used to be one of those people. I believed in Him, but I didn’t quite “get it” yet. I don’t remember a time in my life when I didn’t pray or didn’t believe in God and Jesus and the Holy Spirit. But I was a total mess and God saved my butt a zillion times. For example:

The time I was driving in a snowstorm and spun out on the road and my car spun and spun while there was oncoming traffic and my car just stopped suddenly, in the opposite lane, facing the right direction, before I crashed into the guardrail. I mean, my car just STOPPED in position inexplicably. That was God.

Or the time that I was attacked by a dog, and all of this teeth were centered directly around my windpipe, and the doctor told me that if the dog got the slightest bit more pressure on my neck, I would have been dead. That was God.

Or the time that I was dating my husband, and we had a rocky start to our relationship, and I felt him pulling away from me, and I cried and cried and prayed and prayed about what to do, and I just went over to his apartment and broke up with him. I don’t know where those words came from. I would have never done that on my own – I loved him!!! But we needed to be apart at that moment to figure out what we wanted. We soon got back together forever and ever. That was God telling me what to do.

And the time that I got pregnant after what seemed like a lifetime of longing to be a mother, and I lost the baby. And I was devastated. Gutted. I mean, really. A total mess. But I really, REALLY clung to God and truly accepted that this was His will for us right now, even though it didn’t make any sense to me. And 3 months later I got pregnant with twins. That was God.

And that time that He allowed me to have good health, and a home, and a family, and food to eat, and freedom to worship Him. Those are the things that we too easily forget to thank Him for and see that yes, He is speaking to us. He is keeping His promise to take care of us:

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Do Not Worry

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?

28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

It’s all God, all the time.ImageMe and my babies, back when they really were babies. Awww. Little schmooples.