I am the Lord your God, who brought you up out of Egypt. Open wide your mouth and I will fill it.
If we open ourselves up to Him fully, He will fill us. HE WILL FILL US. We just have to say yes to Him. It’s a pretty simple request. So why does it seem so hard sometimes?
One thing that I struggle with is feeling inadequate. I don’t know where this comes from – past incidents or just human nature or just part of the way my brain works. But I need to remember that every mistake does not define me, and every weak moment is a chance to become stronger in Him. To open myself up fully to Him means not only to let Him work through me to help others and glorify Him and all that stuff. It also means to accept His grace. If I don’t accept His grace when I repent – if I dwell on it and continue to beat myself up over things – then all that Jesus did for us means nothing. NOTHING!!!! He died to close the gap between us and God. It is not a good witness to treat myself like poop.
I know I struggle with guilt when I screw up because I don’t want people to leave me. This is just based on my past and has nothing to do with what my life on earth looks like right now. God will NEVER LEAVE ME. Jesus is right here with me, peering over my shoulder and whispering in my ear what He wants me to write next. I don’t have to pray for forgiveness 16 times for that one thing I did. Repent and reset. He has forgiven me. If I ask Him to keep changing my heart to be more like His, HE WILL. PERIOD. End of story. I say this all the time, but it’s the easiest and most difficult thing in the world.
You would be fed with the finest of wheat; with honey from the rock I would satisfy you.
What does temporary satisfaction look like versus real satisfaction?
That’s a tough one to explain. The best way I can muster is, real satisfaction is an investment. If we do the work – rest in His Word every day, develop a meaningful prayer life with Him, say yes to Him and let Him change our hearts – the ROI (Return On Investment – and not to go off on a tangent but I am SO GLAD I don’t live a life where I have to hear, decipher, and then use acronyms like that anymore!!!!) is going to be more amazing than we could ever imagine for ourselves.
Temporary satisfaction is like, “Oh, if I buy that dress I will look so cool and everyone will think I look awesome and when I go out to the bar to get my drink on people want to know where I got it and think I am so with it and together because I am in this hip place with my hip dress and hip friends WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!”
(Not that I did it.)
1 John 3:18-19
Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth. This then is how we know that we belong to the truth, and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence.
How do I apply this verse to my life? It’s not what I wear or do or look like or watch or listen or even say that defines me…unless I am speaking from my changed heart about His truth. To set our hearts at rest in his presence (which is such a beautiful phrase) means that when I do that, HE WILL TAKE CARE OF THE REST. That is ALL HE WANTS. When we say YES to Him, when we REST in Him, when we listen to Him when He speaks to us, we are living in His truth. Example:
On Saturday morning, I was reading my Bible. Sometimes I just flip through and scan the pages until something jumps out at me and then I kind of roll with it. Somehow, I ended up on Psalm 139:23-24 and I loved it. I circled it, highlighted it, drew my famous squiggles on it.
Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
So, then I wrote down the key words on the back of my Bible:
A few minutes later, I popped on Facebook on my phone and was reading the comments of one of the Proverbs 31 posts, and what did I see? THAT SAME VERSE. This is how God speaks to us. He was telling me to pay attention to that verse.
So, that is my challenge today. To let Him search my heart and really listen to Him so I can say yes to the challenges before me. Maybe you would like to do the same.
I found that leaf in a Bible at church a few weeks ago. I opened it up and it fell out and it was such a perfect leaf…I wonder how long it’s been in there, and who put it there…I just love stuff like that.